This is working out SO BEAUTIFULLY.
First of all, I HAVE A TITLE AND I HAVE LYRICS.
Second, I AM LOVING this warm, intimate, blurry, memory-feeling vibe that is happening!!
Building up the song from the idea, this is what I did:
So I do, and it does.
I can’t shake it, I’ve been making excuses. I can’t fake it, noone but you can do this, yeah.”
Holy shit. What kind of song is this?!?! And I kindof reel a bit. First off-I’m so flabbergasted at the amazingness of the timing and placement of the melody, I hadn’t heard that before, and I’m IN LOVE with where it’s going. Then, I consider the lyrics that came out, and I’m like – yeah. I have been making excuses. For a lot of things, but really – for … not “doing this” more often. It had felt like forever since I’d made music, since I’d felt my heart full of the love for this … THING that I become when I open myself up to the flow.
Anyhow. So I had to sit again for a minute and just settle in with the idea that was coming across. With the idea I was letting myself embody.
I decided I didn’t want it to be a regretty song. I’ve written a ton of regretty songs before, and I wanted this to turn right away to a better feeling song than that.
So I thought, “How can this not be such a regretty song, but more of a good-feeling song?”
And I realized – It’s kindof seeming like a song about love.
About that feeling when – everything falls away. Bliss just exists.
Bliss becomes a permeating feeling – it becomes tangible. In fact – it becomes the window in which everything is viewed.
It’s like stepping through a curtain of Before, and Now.
Now is golden. Warm. Glowing. Shimmering. Magical. Special. Loved. Adored. Intimate. Delicious. Tantalizing. FUN. Adventurous. Frisky. Knowing.
These are all kinds of good feelings that I know about & have a good history to draw from.
So for the rest of the song, I just think about that & describe it. Give myself the opportunity to lyrically paint that warm glowing space that an idea like this lives in.
IRONICALLY – or perfect-timingly – Pico my sweet sweet boy kitty walks right into my room while I’m laying down bass for this song.
What I loved so much about reflecting on this was, it reminded me of when he came into my life. When the person who brought him to my doorstep first handed him to me and he instantly cuddled into my chin and started purring and I just – pure love poured out of me for him. Pure love.
And there have been other times with boys involved where – the fun and friskiness of first interactions together just take over my world. Make it seem like that’s the only place I want to be for who cares how long. It’s SO GOOD.
So I sit with these thoughts & let the rest of the music just guide that intention.
I’m chopping up vocal parts & placing them like record skips.
I’m not doing any file maintenance – I’m leaving all the hard edges, ins and outs of vocal cut-ups.
I’m letting the breaths become part of the punctuation of the song, not something that I would normally edit out or decrease in volume.
This is about the breathing & intimacy & warm glow.
I am so in love with this song.